不明白的事情

有些事我总是想不清楚！
为甚么一些人能这样？

我不应该抱怨因为我根本没资格但是我真的很辛苦！
今年发生很多事！这一年来，我没有开心过！我很希望明年我能开心！

1. 家里的事越来越多！我真的很烦！我快受不了！如果在这样下去，我真的会疯掉！
虽然我有把心事说出来，但是我总是觉得很痛。如果我身体受伤，我很快就会好，但如果心里受了伤。这个伤永远都不会好，如果我去想它伤口就会更痛！不管我告诉多少人，我还是觉得很痛。每次我说出来，这个伤会痛。我能把它治好吗？

2. 我终于能说我不管了! 我终于放弃了。我知道我说过很多次了但是这次我认输了！我只好向前看了，因为他已经出了绝招。我什么都不能改变。事实是不能改变的，所以我只好接受这个事实！但是知道这个事实时，我不生气而不难过。

能说的都说了。我现在只希望明年对我十一个好年。我想每天都过得开开心心！ =D

为什么？

为什么
为什么我最不想要发生的事情却发生了？
为什么要解散？
为什么?
在一起那么久了，为什么要解散！

虽然说私地下感情很好
但是真的很好嘛？
在一起有7年了！

解散！

我快受不了！我好想哭！

Just a Cinderella Story

3 years
What has happened these 3 years?
Well not much actually...
life has been the same and always so boring
Maybe to others, nothing has happened in the 3 years, but to me, alot has happened in the 3 years

- friends leaving
- friends forgetting
- losing friends
- losing love
- past coming back that I would never want it to come back
- getting older
- finished high school
- new friends?

- Friends leaving
One of my best friend left the country. Before she left, me and her did not talk for about 3 months and all because of this incident. I know that I was the one at fault for not talking to her but I can't handle the fact that she is yet again hurting herself. I do not want my friends to get hurt by anything let alone by yourself. I really treasure this friend. Lots of regret has come to me when I finally realised that this friend has gone. This friend meant alot to me, and i mean alot. I may not seem that way but deep down, she does mean alot to me. I may not act that way, but deep down, she is a true friend of mine. I may treat her like crap sometimes and I admit, those were my fault but I don't know what I can do to show her that I care. I am not a person that can easily express their feelings. I am not a person that is open, I don't like opening myself to people, I am a person that is cold. I may not seem cold but I am. I like keeping it to myself, I like suffering myself. I don't know why. I am sorry that I couldn't open myself to this friend, and I know that I should've as this friend has always been open to me.

I don't know what else I can say to her except "I Love You!" I know this may sound weird in some sort of way, but I do love her... She is a friend that I would truly treasure forever and love

** To Be Continued**

It Has To Be You

For one day, for one month, for one year
It cannot be without you
It has to be you ...
It's alright even if I'm hurt, even if my heart is broken, because it is only you that I love

Because I never called that person anything
Just like the Ibis cries out its own call
Just like a bird, I called my name and cried

对还是不对

當愛情強烈得無法呼吸，你想逃離，還是勇敢面對？

时间到了

我最不想的那一天到了
我决定放弃了
完全的放弃
在这样下去是没有结果的。。。
我在这里宣布：

我，许欣敏，

星期三，七月二十八日

我要放弃三年的。。。
我也不知道叫什么

我现在什么都不想理了!
他想跟谁就跟谁。。。

***

过了一个星期
我没去想他了，可是我真的能放弃他吗？
我说过很多次我想放弃，可是我可以吗？
三年，三年对我来说是什么?
我把感情放了三年，我能说放弃就放弃吗？
我没看见他，我也没跟他说话
为什么我就是这么的霸道！
为什么！
难道这世界没有其他男人了吗？
为什么我一定要喜欢他?
为什么喜欢一个人要那么的辛苦？
如果我可以选，我选不喜欢！我不想再辛苦下去了！
我真的很笨！为什么喜欢他三年呢？

只对你有感觉

为什么！
已经两年了，我还是想着你！
两年前， 是你的错所以我们才分手的
为什么，我还是那么的喜欢你
虽然不是每天都想你，但是每次看到你时，我就不一样了
我不知道是什么
总之我知道，我对你的感觉还没消失

可能是在我所有的男朋友里，你是让我觉得骄傲的吧
不知道为什么，你给我的感觉跟其他人不一样
我对你的感觉也跟其他人不一样

你就是不同！

跟你在一起，我觉得我有真爱过
跟你在一起，我能感受得到恋爱的感觉
跟你在一起，我真的很开心
跟你在一起，我能做到正真的我

我承认， 两年前我的确很生气
平且停止和你聊天，但是你不能怪我这样做啊

我真的很想念两年前的我们
我真的很想回去两年前的我们
我真的很想跟你在一起

There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more CHANCE!